Moving On

Tomorrow we’re moving from Union City, NJ to Jamaica, NY. Not a big move in distance, but a big move in other ways. I wonder about the place where I’m going and hold on to the place where I’ve been.

It happens that today’s reading is St. Augustine’s famous reflection about finding God. “Place” isn’t the main issue, he says, moving on means more than that:

“Where did I find you first? You could not have been in my memory before I learned to know you. Where then could I have found you in order to learn of you, if not in yourself, far above me?

“Place” has here no meaning: further away from you or toward you we may travel, but place there is none. O Truth, you hold sovereign sway over all who turn to you for counsel, and to all of them you respond at the same time, however diverse their pleas.

“Clear is your response, but not all hear it clearly. They all appeal to you about what they want, but do not always hear what they want to hear. Your best servant is the one who is less intent on hearing from you what accords with his own will, and more on embracing with his will what he has heard from you.

“Late have I loved you, Beauty so ancient and so new, late have I loved you!

Lo, you were within,

but I outside, seeking there for you,

and upon the shapely things you have made

I rushed headlong – I, misshapen.

You were with me, but I was not with you.

They held me back far from you,

those things which would have no being,

were they not in you.

You called, shouted, broke through my deafness;

you flared, blazed, banished my blindness;

you lavished your fragrance, I gasped; and now I pant for you;

I tasted you, and now I hunger and thirst;

you touched me, and I burned for your peace.

“When at last I cling to you with my whole being there will be no more anguish or labor for me, and my life will be alive indeed, alive because filled with you. But now it is very different. Anyone whom you fill you also uplift; but I am not full of you, and so I am a burden to myself. Joys over which I ought to weep do battle with sorrows that should be matter for joy, and I do not know which will be victorious. But I also see griefs that are evil at war in me with joys that are good, and I do not know which will win the day. This is agony, Lord, have pity on me! It is agony! See, I do not hide my wounds; you are the physician and I am sick; you are merciful, I need mercy.”

 

 

8 thoughts on “Moving On

  1. Mary Jane

    Cenacle Sisters at “Ronky” will accompany you on your journey with our prayer. Mary Jane r.c.

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  2. Susan Louise Scherman

    Fr. Victor & Jim,
    I wish you the very best of everything in your move to Jamaica, NY. We had some very good times in the Passionist Building, and we will never forget them. I am sure you and Mauro will be creating more movies and editing them, and I will still prepare my sauerbraten! You are always welcome in our home. Best Wishes, Susan Scherman

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  3. ROSEMARIE BYRNES

    DEAR FATHER VICTOR, PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS AT THIS VERY UNSETTLING TIME IN YOUR LIFE AND IN THE COMMUNITIES LIFE. GOD HAS GREAT THINGS IN STORE FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM AND YOU HAVE CERTAINLY SHOWN THAT LOVE. YOU WILL BE FINE!! CHANGE IS NEVER EASY BUT SOMEHOW WE GET THROUGH AND ARE STRONGER FOR THE CHANGE. BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF AND REMEMBER YOU ARE GREATLY LOVED BY ALL OF US YOUR FRIENDS AND CHRIST THE GREATEST LOVER OF ALL. PEACE, ROSEMARIE

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  4. Gail Smyder

    Hearts are very delicate and tender, yet also very strong and open when surrounded by a beauty ever ancient and ever new. All this surrounds you now so humanly and yet so deeply immersed in the sacred which you found, wrote and listen to and share with us on this blog and with the parishoners who love the Lord through your ministry.

    I am sure your heart is stretching tremendously these days. It is so good for us to hear your pain and to know where you will go to seek His loving mercy. You share it so beautifully, so now we share and pray with and for you.

    Much prayer and hope for all the newness to come. Gail

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  5. Ann Marie Dayton

    Dear Fr. Victor,
    No matter where you move physically, may you always feel that St. Mary’s is “Your Place”. We all love you and pray for you.
    Ann Marie

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  6. Chris Barnett

    Dear Father Victor, I wish you best of all at the new location and am praying for your community – Chris Barnett

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